1month and 14 days counting

We never know and we shall never know...
and I wonder and wander... and pray for the light to be seen!
I'll never have certainties, but will always have feelings, sensations and intituions, so now my feeling, my sensation and my intitution is that all makes sense, and it's time for me to go, and above all my feeling says, actually, it shouts: I WANNA GO SO FUCKING BAD!!!!!!!!!!
All that happened was for the best, and I'm free to break free, clean, empty and dry, even sterelized I was.
At peace, and in peace, I feel.
Counting down the days... to leave these familiar fields, these friendly territories, to a journey of self-discovery, and come back as new (the same as it never was)
Counting down the days for new parties, for new booze, for new lovers, for new floors, and new beds, and new sights and new smiles...
And I'm ready...so ready to be new

'heart skipped a beat'

I can give so much more... but not to you... It's mind blowing to see that when you hear some magical-wise words, that when you get to get off for some time, your brain starts to breathe again, the blood rushs to the head again and you finally THINK!!!
and tangled up in books and dictionaries I got time to work it out, and realize I'm so better off.. and then I calm down, and see things through and I know I know better, I deserve better, and above all I want so much better, I know the solution I only need time to give this eternally pacient solution a chance... so, yes, I'm at ease, with me.